Sweet baby angels!
So, I've been back in LA for a couple of weeks now and it's awesome. Still job/house hunting but that will all come in time.
I wanted to talk about being alone. I think that being single has notoriously had only one of two philosophies behind it. Either you're looking for a new partner desperately and just pulling a hard Season 2 Charolette or you're just trolling for sex. Today doing both have gotten way easier with apps like Tinder and the lesser Bumble, etc.
But those aren't your only two options as a single human. Just that word itself is so powerful. Single. Solitary. Stand-alone. Like, do y'all realize how fucking cool that is to be doing everything for yourself. Having your feelings, and responsibilities based solely on you? That's so chill. Because blaming shit on other people is such a garbage fucking move. Playing the victim is everybody's biggest pet peeve, so stop doing it. No one likes a fucking martyr.
I was in control of my actions no matter how unhappy I was in my past relationship. I was choosing to stay in in - for whatever reason - but I was. That was my decision.
I spent so much of my time trying to make sure that HE was happy, HE was okay, HE wasn't upset with me, HE didn't have to worry about anything. That was a waste of energy for me but I was sticking in it - you know? So I can't be mad at that. That's what I was dedicating myself to at that moment.
But now being alone, single, by myself, on my own - whatever you choose to call it - I get to only worry about if I'M happy, if I'M proud of myself, if I'M doing the best shit that I can do with my life.
Of course, don't hurt people, and don't be too big of a dick, but you just have to worry about yourself. You're not going to wake up in the morning with that sinking, painful feeling in your stomach of your boyfriend, or girlfriend being pissed at you or you being pissed at them. You just get to live in your own life for yourself.
I know that this all sounds redundant, but it's just such a liberating feeling that i feel it should be repeated, ja feel?
And being the archetypes of singledom sometimes is chill, too. Troll for dick, ask to be set up, live your life and volunteer at an animal shelter.
Thanks for reading, fam. It'd be chill if this helped you at all.